anglphyre

I couldn't read all my old journals anymore. They make my heart hurt...

It's been so very long since I've been here. D: I've got lots of memories, good and bad (mostly bad) from being here and it's been a challenge just to update what I have. I was searching for examples of a long-lost friend's art to show another friend (like a HOLY CRAP LOOK AT THIS sort of thing) and found out that she's gone... She left and god knows where she went. She hates my guts anyway, so it doesn't really matter. But I still think about her often and wish I could apologize for being such a retard and obliterating our friendship. I've tried talking to her several times since and she wants nothing to do with me. I understand, I really do. I'm a little more laid back and less inclined to hold a grudge than she is, but y'know. That's just me.

Every time I think about it though I get this shaky feeling in my chest, like my heart is trying to escape from my chest. (Did a pic like that years ago actually) She was my tutor, muse, best friend and more...

If you ever trip across this, I miss you. I understand if you don't retaliate, but just know. I think of you often and fondly, and wish I could take back all the awful things I said to you.

(OFF TOPIC RANDOM RANT)

DA WENT AND GOT ALL COMPLICATED! >< I feel like an old fart discovering the internet for the first time just trying to submit a piece! What's the DEAL????